Meet ME

Cristiana

The memory of my life started on the day I saw my grandfather dying before me, just a few months after the birth of my sister.

I had a very happy childhood, where the experiences at school and in my grandmother’s home fostered imagination, curiosity, and creative expression in a collective environment. Along with the holidays with my parents, I grew up feeling that life is a party, a permanent gift always surprising.

I had to wait until the age of 9 to start ballet classes, as being a ballerina was my main dream, but there was no dance school nearby.

Fast forward to when I was starting to live the dream of being a professional dancer, and at the same time the love relationship of my life, I fell on stage just before starting “Giselle”, and went directly to the hospital with a ruptured anterior cruciate knee ligament. Reality and fantasy were merging and dissolving the boundaries.

Suddenly, my deepest dream was ending at the moment it was starting. It was terrifying and at the same time a relief! Difficult to explain. Black-out.

Faced with a big scar on my knee, but also with the innate ability to regenerate I carry in this body, I was invited to unite art and life, beginnings and endings, and embrace the beauty of the unexpected, living each present moment with intensity.

My journey as a fulfilled artist, entrepreneur, mother, and wife led to a turning point when the organization I was co-managing lost the main funds that supported the project, at the same time we were being gifted with a free space to develop it.

Rebirth after rebirth, I was faced with my inner voice telling me to accept my completion within that cycle and hear my deep YES to move forward.

I felt I had more to give, more to receive, more to experience…. Instead of a blackout, I was facing an uncertain blank page, not knowing where to go , what to do,

I felt completely lost, but at the same time, I knew that my desire for transformation and evolution was manifesting. So, while feeling without references and with two kids to educate, I understood that the only point of reference I could rely on was myself. If there was just one thing to teach or remind my sons about, it was always to follow their truth, their hearts, their dreams.

It was another jump in the dark and what a quantum leap!

Reconnecting with my cosmic origin in a once-lifetime experience where I simply lay and feel, without being touched, without objects, without words…, simply receiving energy, light and information… was entering a magical world.

But then, again, life surprised me with the unexpected, and I was gifted with a pregnancy that ended prematurely on my birthday! It’s hard to describe the mixing feelings of that celebration as it touched the infinite, the unnamed…, bringing a mystic convergence of life and death in my own body.

It wasn’t just a personal rebirth; it wasn’t a loss of this angel I named Iris. It was me giving birth to my Self, embodying the divine, and accepting the sacred role of being a portal of life force in this dimension.

At this moment, I felt the rainbow and the call to embark on a path of spiritual initiation transcending polarities. What a ride!!!

Life is never linear! This was the point I started the other way around and through the medicine of the frequency of love, the medicine of the elements, through the connection to sisterhood and global communities, through a challenging twin flame journey, I started a “dark night of the soul” undoing, detaching, letting go, facing my deepest fears, and transmuting fragilities into pillars of my humanity. Until the wounds didn’t hurt, until fragments became crystals.

I’ve come full circle! What I gained was inner peace and the feeling of eternity. Maybe I died and don’t remember anymore. I live the dream of unity.

At the same time, I didn’t become a hero, but a zero, the invisible space through which the mystery of life creates whatever needs to be created, connecting me to the ones that I’m ready to meet and making concrete what once seemed impossible.