I offer you the power of LIFE

Experience the gift of feeling truly alive

 

MEET ME

Life Alchemist / Dream facilitator / Inner Leadership Guide

 

I AM

my context

I am Cristiana, born on the 1st of February 1974 in Matosinhos, Portugal.

1974 was the year of the Carnation Revolution in Portugal, a peaceful military coup also known as the April 25 Revolution. It led to the overthrow of the authoritarian Estado Novo regime, which had been in power for almost five decades, and paved the way for the establishment of a democratic government.

The 25th of April was the day I returned home from the hospital after giving birth to my son Gil and also the day I shared my intention to divorce, after 26 years of a shared relationship. These were two significant points of radical change in my life. It was also the day we had the privilege to receive Dr. Eric Pearl in Portugal in 2017.

1974 was also the year of India’s First Nuclear Test, codenamed “Smiling Buddha,” on May 18.

This day in 2017 marked the final meeting of NEC – Nucleus for Choreographic Experimentation – an organization I had been leading for over 20 years with a collective of artists. It served as an incubator for multiple artistic projects that transformed the cultural landscape of Portugal, primarily Porto and the northern region.

In 2019, on the same date, I joined an online movement that reminded me of the fundamental lessons carried by the elements of nature and the transformative power of dreaming together in sisterhood. It was a deep, heartfelt YES to both myself and the collective.

In 2023, it was the last day before I traveled to Madrid to participate in The Break Fellowship, a program for female entrepreneurs that allowed me to live the dream of a connected, conscious, and beautiful world.

Back in 1974, it was the year ABBA won the Eurovision Song Contest with the song “Waterloo,” drawing a comparison between the surrender of Napoleon in the final battle and the surrender to a lover.

I like to include this global context because it informs my humanity, providing a deeper awareness of the imprints I carry within me, parallel to astrological forces and various programs. It briefly illustrates the interconnectedness between the micro and the macro, reflecting how memory is not linear, and the beauty of the double-spiraling movement of life—both inward and outward—constantly expanding.


“I feel like I win

when I lose”

 

ABBA, Waterloo, 197

It was written in Abba’s song what I embodied on my journey.

my story

The memory of my life started on the day I saw my grandfather dying before me, just a few months after the birth of my sister.

I had a very happy childhood, where the experiences at school and in my grandmother’s home fostered imagination, curiosity, and creative expression in a collective environment. Along with the holidays with my parents, I grew up feeling that life is a party, a permanent gift always surprising.

I had to wait until the age of 9 to start ballet classes, as being a ballerina was my main dream, but there was no dance school nearby.

Fast forward to when I was starting to live the dream of being a professional dancer, and at the same time the love relationship of my life, I fell on stage just before starting “Giselle”, a classical ballet where love, dance, and death, are the main ingredients. It happened with a little jump in the dark. Black out!

I went directly to the hospital with a ruptured anterior cruciate knee ligament. Reality and fantasy were merging and dissolving the boundaries. I felt I was dying on stage.

Suddenly, my deepest dream was ending at the moment it was starting. It was terrifying and at the same time a relief, as it allowed me to come back home to Porto during the 9 months of physiotherapy and have the opportunity to live love and discover strengths I didn’t know I had.

Faced with a big scar on my knee, but also with the amazing innate ability to regenerate, I was invited to unite art and life, beginnings and endings, and embrace the beauty of the unexpected, living each present moment with intensity and devotion.

The years ahead were a productive time, studying and working, traveling weekly between Lisbon and Porto, merging psychology and dance, managing an artistic association, giving birth to new projects, teaching, being a mom, and a wife, and playing the roles of a successful woman.

It was a hero’s journey with ups and downs, with a progressive sensation of too much effort, loneliness, and no recognition.

A turning point – the loss of the main funds that supported the organization I was co-managing, opened the opportunity to listen to my inner voice telling me to accept my completion within this cycle and hear my deep YES to move forward.

 

Divine presence

I felt I had more to give, more to receive, more to experience…. Instead of a blackout, I was facing an uncertain blank page, not knowing where to go, or what to do.

I felt completely lost, but at the same time, I knew that my desire for transformation and expansion was manifesting. So, while feeling without references and with two kids to educate, I understood that the only point of reference I could rely on was myself. If there was just one thing to teach or remind my sons about, it was always to follow their truth, their hearts, and their dreams, to live fully.

It was another jump in the dark and what a quantum leap!

Reconnecting with my cosmic origin in a once-lifetime experience where I simply lay and feel, without being touched, without objects, without words…, simply receiving energy, light and information… was entering a magical world.

But then, again, life surprised me with the unexpected, and I was gifted with a pregnancy that ended prematurely on my birthday! It’s hard to describe the mixing feelings of that celebration as it touched the infinite, the unnamed…, bringing a mystic convergence of life and death in my own body. It was the feeling of the divine, but from the inside out.

It wasn’t just a personal rebirth; it wasn’t a loss of this angel I named Iris. It was me giving birth to my Self, embodying the divine, and accepting the sacred role of being a portal of life force in this dimension.

After this catalytic experience, I embarked on a path of spiritual initiation, meeting spiritual teachers and soul brothers and sisters who started reminding me of my cosmic nature and role in this lifetime. What a ride!!!

This was the point where I had to break away from everything, discovering and accepting my healing superpowers as well as my darkest fears and shadows over the course of 7 years.

The frequency of Love, the medicine of the elementals, the connection to sisterhood and global communities, and a challenging twin flame journey entering my “dark night of the soul”, were the discovery of my multidimensionality.

I had several people come to me from different parts of the world to tell me that I had a greater mission in the process of collective ascension. That I was a Starseed, a high priestess from Lemuria, a ShaWoman, a soul from the beginning of time, a cosmic doula, the embodiment of Christ, RA, a spiritual teacher of the ancient mysteries, Divine mother…

I had to doubt everything and trust everything while laughing a lot, not taking these statements too seriously, but let them open new possibilities within me.

I knew that saying YES to my expansion was a choice to be my own master, to trust my instincts, and not allow the ego to take control or look for external validation, even coming from the spiritual field. All I wanted was to feel human.

So, I chose the most difficult path of following my truth and guidance, knowing that I had to find it from within, trusting in divine timing, and being very patient and compassionate.

It was a process of undoing, releasing, letting go, inviting space to enter, being in silence, facing my deepest fears and turning fragility into diamonds. Until the wounds didn’t hurt anymore, until the fragments were reunited.

What a gift the pandemic was for me! After Reconnective Healing, Continuum, and Shamanic Studies, Instinctive Meditation was the perfect 9-month teaching program I could experience to embody my wholeness. At this moment, death was being experienced on a collective scale, in life. And I was being reborn again!


Celebrate the boundary

where streams join the sea,

where body meets infinity.”

Lorin Roche, Sutra 44

 

i take life – i give life – I am life

I discovered my own natural way of being in touch with what is beyond and before any form, in the micro and the macro and becoming IT.

While accepting and celebrating all parts of myself, I was losing all the material circumstances that my feeling of safety could rely on.

Since 2022, after the experience of having resurrected a man, I started seeing all my life the other way around as described when we die. All the things that I interrupted were being presented, people I had lost was appearing through other form, and also Iris or my friend Stephen.


I’ve come full circle! Ascending to the frequency of enlightenment and descending to the everyday human life so that we can be Love, Peace, God, intimate with everything and everyone and experience more magic night and day.

Through my life, LIFE can be studied, described, analyzed, understood, and mainly, felt. All the codes of the universe live in each one of us. Our stories are our own medicine and contribution. Our presence is enough to impact the world. And I came to remember you about that.

” Native of eternity At home in infinity Breathing Immortality”

Within myself and with the whole, I live the dream of unity. Of being unique. Feeling my inner child alive and my adult in balance and peace.

Welcome here conscious dreamer

You’ve come a long way and now you’re back to the essentials, but with a different awareness and wisdom.

This is the moment to choose if you want to give up dreaming,

if you want to continue to make dreams come true through effort and some wear and tear,

or if you want to experience the magic of becoming the dream itself, life itself, and transforming your presence into your greatest contribution to humanity by gathering those who align with the fullness of your being.

Remember: the life you came to live is YOU

In early May 2024, as I lay in bed with my eyes closed, basking in the first rays of sunshine, I asked myself, “What would you like to do before you die?”

And the answer was: NOTHING. Being in this moment, right now, is everything.

It wasn’t a phrase from a book, nor was it an affirmation to achieve spiritual enlightenment; it came from the bottom of my heart, carried by the voice that comes from within me, from the ends of the universe, and contains eternity.
In that moment I felt how far and deep I had come in the process of embodying consciousness.

And now I’m here, for you, with you, as medicine, as art, as love, to co-create heaven on earth (for that is my greatest dream).

Let’s say that I died without dying, and now I know what it feels like to be immortal.

There is nothing more significant and transformative on my resume than to have achieved this vibration, wisdom and inner peace that connects beginning and end, embodying the continuous web of life, death and rebirth.

And at the center of this website is us, me and you together, co-creating a unique combination, starting from this vastness that is the mystery of being alive.

It is from here that a new human being can be created, that new programs can be generated, that new connections can expand all of us,

If you’re curious to know more about me, there’s nothing more fascinating than what makes two strangers meet, so I’ll be happy to share more with you in a 1:1 experience that you can choose